2003-03-27 at 6:02 p.m.
I had it all planned out for last weekend. My mom was leaving friday for Dallas. She went to see her sister (who knows why) and daddy worked. So I asked my parents if I could stay with some friends for the weekend. They said yep... only if I wasn't at a guy's house.... So I called Tiffani. She said "Ok. Come over whenever." So as soon as mom left, I grabbed my duffle and my black dress and headed toward's her house. **tiff said we were going somewhere "special" just us gurl's to take her mind off of jake** I got there and the makeover began. Every girl for the "sleep over" had brought there dress and make up and we went to a teen club. Ok, no biggy. I'd heard my friends talk about them. So we got to the club and the music was blasting! We went and found a big round booth and then half the group left to dance. I sat down and this guy takes our drink orders. "miss, this message was left for you," he told me and he gave me a note. It read "I know you've wondered who I am, and Tiffani said you were coming tonight. Meet me at the bar at 7:30. An admirer." I looked at the waiter and he just winked. This got scarier every minute. I looked at my watch. It was only 6:45 and I waited for my virgin daquiri. and the next thing you know, this guy, who's really cute comes by and asks me to dance. "Sure" i said, but I have two left feet... anyways, it was a fast song and he pulled me too close... I'm still with mike you know? I thought quickly and said "I'm not feeling well... Mind if I sit down?" and the next thing you know... a voice says "Kennistal... what are you doing here?" I turn around and it's Zeth. "What are YOU doing here, Zeth?" he just looked me over... "You look hott, Kenni." I was being a ditz and said "it's a little warm in here." "No," he replied, "you are the hottest girl here." He looked me over again. My wavy hair hung just pas my shoulders. I wore makeup and these cute dangly earings. But then I looked at what I was wearing. My dress was above my knee a couple of inches and it was a low v-neck **it showed some cleavage, I guess** and sleeveless and backless... it fastened behind my neck and it hugged my body in just the right way... Ok, so I looked hott. "Kenni, let me love you." He grabbed my hand and led me to a room on the top floor... he knocked and no one answered so he pulled out a key and opened the door and turned on the lights. It was a nice sized office and it had an overstuffed sofa on one wall. He closed the door and locked it. "No one will bug us." I looked around and wondered who worked here. "This is my office, Kenni." I looked around again. "it's nice, zeth."
He led me to the couch and asked me to sit down while he went in this other tiny room. "i've got some juice if you want it." I shook my head. No, I would not drink it. He came back with a flask of punch looking stuff... prolly fruit punch or Kool-Aid. He moved closer. "Kenni, I've liked you for a long time, but you started going out with Mike before I could talk to you." I looked at him, a bit uncomfortable, but not wanting to do anything. He put his arm around me. "Can I be honest? I'm in love with you." He pulled me close and kissed me. I'll be honest, it felt good. The kiss was filled with passion, something I'd been desiring. then he took off his shirt. He looked kinda cute without his shirt. He was all tan and muscular. He pushed himself toward me and kissed me even more passionately. His hands were on my bare back and he found the clasp to undo my dress. I started to pull back, but part of me wanted to keep on giving to this man whom I barely knew. He undid my clasp and subconsciously I got up and clasped it again. I opened the door and ran out the door. I saw mike. I didn't think that night could get worse... but it did. "Kenni, wait up!" Mike called after me. I started to cry. "Mike we need to break up." I said in my tears. "Why kenni? What's wrong?" I just ran. I ran until I could no longer see the club, but I was a long way from my home. A car pulled up beside me. "Kenni, I'll give you a ride home." It was mike. "Ok." i really just wanted to fall into a dreamless sleep. "Kenni, Zeth told me what happened." I just started to cry. "And kenni, I forgive you. It's over now. Knowing this do you still want to break up with me?" I thought about it and said, "Honestly mike, I don't know how I can stay with you knowing what I did. I really think I need some space to think. I'm sorry." for the rest of the ten minute drive (which seemed really long!) we didn't talk. when we reached my house, I'd stopped crying and said "thanks for bringing me home." and I went inside and fell asleep. I forgot about staying at Tiffani's but I didn't care. I needed to think... not to be with a bunch of girls. I still hurt about that.... what's wrong with me?
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