2003-05-19 at 9:53 p.m.
I think, maybe, I'm getting over him. Well, I'll never be totally over him, he's been a part of the best eight months of my life, but maybe that's all God meant for it to be.
Today, I went outside in the courtyard to eat for a change in scenery and Max decided to start flirting with me. Ok, no big deal, but then Josh gangs up on me with Max. I'm thinking that something is seriously wrong. I'm not totally recovered from Mike, but I responded in playfulness, the playfulness I thought I'd lost. They kept flirting, and maybe you could say I flirted back, but it was out of good humor, and then Mike comes out to ask Gina something about Webmastering and his pages. But when he looked at me, his eyes filled with hurt. And I just kinda looked at him. He began to leave, and I called out to him. "Mike, we need to talk." He looked at me with that pained expression and nodded. "Later, Kenni." I almost burst into tears but then something unexpected bubbled up... laughter. I started laughing uncontrollably. I don't know why, but I did. Tha's why I think I'm over him. But then I don't think I'll ever be "over" him.
Anyways, I need to go.
<>< Kenni
"I lost I found I was missing love Oh missing love...." PFR Missing Love from the album Disappear
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