2003-06-25 at 9:45 p.m.
Right now I still wonder if yes was the right answer to Mike yesterday. He came by my house around noon. Sandy suspects something. He took me to lunch where we ate fried chicken (yum!) and drank sweet tea. Only something's different. I'm about to go to bed, or actually, read. Is it possible I'm rushing God? Anyways, I saw Wil there too. I said "Hey" and he just smirked. Sheesh, show some respect, will ya? He was with his new girl, Kendra. I wonder how often he's slept with her. Sorry, I didn't mean that. It's just that he's hurt so many of us. Sarah told me he declares himself an atheist, but he looks so forlorn. *sigh* I don't get it.
Back to Mike... We sat and talked and then we went to his house. His dad was at work, and I didn't feel comfortable, but I didn't say anything. We played Halo a bit, and I kicked his BUTT! Then we sat down and stuck in "Princess Bride" to watch. I love this movie and just watched it, but he, I guess, had other plans. He's so different than when I knew him! He kissed me once, and I thought, ok, it's just once, but then he started kissing me more furiously and passionately, and I couldn't tell myself to pull away. Then we got to the shrieking eels part of the movie, and he jumped and I said I needed to get home and for him to call me later. So he took me home and I ran to my room and cried. Tha's how life is I guess.