Sometimes I hate being in love, you know? I'm not even sure I'm in love with Paul. But I miss him. Terribly. I wonder if he's enjoying San Antonio or if he is miserable with out me. I am miserable now. I never thought I would be, but I miss him sooo much. That's why I hate being in love.

Am I really in love though, or do I just think I am? I was in love with Mike. Look where that got me. But then Paul did tell me that he would never mistreat me. I hope he keeps that promise. I can't afford to have my heart broken, hurt, whatever, a third time.

I guess I am though. I really love Paul, but will it last?

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