2004-04-13 at 8:56 p.m.
I thought this stress would dissipate after turning in my term paper. It hasn't. It's not just the paper that has me worried. I'll never see that thing again anyway! It's more of the remainder of school and how I can't slack off! I've already been slacking too much, and this week is not the best time to be turning in late homework. I'm almost out of high school and into Baylor (if I haven't told you already, Baylor is my choice college...)
As far as Kurt? Well, he's just another guy. As much as I desire something more intimate, I know that right now this eighteen year old mind won't be able to handle it. I know, I have my share of mistakes with the guys I've dated, and I can never be perfectly innocent again, but I can try. I've given up on guys. I think for prom, I may ask Kurt, but I really don't want to be anything more than just a friend, you know? Too much heartache.
My friend Courtney is making a HUGE mistake, if you ask me. I know I'm rambling. I was up all night with my paper, and it STILL wasn't perfect, but Court decided that this guy whom she's never met face to face is the "one". I just can't believe that, honestly. One of my friends was almost involved in a online relationship, much like Courtney's, and the guy wound up stalking her! Oh, and another friend? Well she decided she would "date" this guy, but when they actually did meet, he looked horrid and treated her even worse, so I have reason to be wary of online relationships... I just hope it isn't to late for Courtney you know???
Oh, and HE IS RISEN!!! I decided that Easter songs are great to listen to musically because they start like a dirge, sad, slow and mournful, and then all of a sudden it's a happy fanfare. I wish I could have seen the Passion this weekend. What a suiting movie for the Easter holidays. Jesus, my Lord, is risen, and He will reign FOREVER!!! How good could it get?
Well, I'm almost sure that you don't want to hear me ramble anymore! I'm not even sure I trust my thoughts as simpled out as I am, so I'm gonna leave ya in peace. For now! **sticks her tongue out**
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