2005-04-28 at 12:23 a.m.
So Mikecame by my house while i was home a week ago, and he, evidently, arranged it so that he could take me out. it was really sweet! He bought me dinner at valentino's, an old burger joint turned into an italian restaraunt. tres interesante! anyways, so we go there, and i'm sitting there, kinda picking at my fettucine, not really hungry, and he starts talking.
"So, kenni, we ended on a bad note. I'm sorry i wasn't the friend that you needed me to be or the boyfriend i should've been. But i realized something as i lived with raquel... God has so much more for me than this empty party life i lived" he paused. I didn't know how to respond. I didn't know ifi should say anything or just nod. "I realize that now, and now i'm on a mission to seek forgiveness from those i've hurt. I've apologized to my grandparents, and raquel, and now i apologize to you. I know this is a weird way to apologize, but i thought we could start here."
"Start here with what? Dating again?" i busted out. i didn't know what i was doing, but i figured it out quickly. "I'm sorry. My last relationship with a guy was rough. stuff happened, and i got hurt. I'm not ready to date...." i paused and took a deep breath. "I don't mind starting out as friends. just know that we may not date again, ok?"
he looked kind of surprised, but in a nice way. "Kenni, that was better than what i thought you'd do. I thought you'd say there was no way for us to be friends again, but i really liked hanging out with you. i know we've both changed. I really do just want to start off here, as friends. nothing more. if we meet and want to date others, then great! let's do. thanks"
"eh, no prob"
and then we talked randomly and finished dinner....
and on the phone everyday since then....