2005-06-19 at 4:46 p.m.
i realized the otherday as i sat over a meal consisting of chili cheese fries and a xtra large vanilla dr pepper that if i continued to eat in such a manner, i'd die of a heart attack at the age of thirty... so what did i do? I sat down and made a list of foods that I liked eating that were healthy, and i started my own little diet. I've drunk only water (no tea, no dr p) for the past two days and have limited my sugar intake. I also, believe it or not, have started to exercise. Yes, that's right, i've been exercising, and my buns hurt! LOL and so do my legs and stomach since i'm trying to tone my thighs, butt and stomach, well, and my arms.... they're getting a little flabby.
James called today. he left today to visit his grandma. "I miss you kenni." I smiled. I told him about this diet that andi and i were going on and he's like "You don't need it! I like you the way you are!" and I blushed. thankfully he couldn't see that. :-D
And I told Kurt when he came by yesterday that i really just wanted to be friends right now and he was like "yeah, i know. i just wanted to see you before i go to leadership training for ROTC." He left at around 5:30 last night (he took me to get an icecream cone from sonic... so i cheated on my diet a little... it won't hurt me :D)and he met James, who amazingly, took it well that Kurt was visiting for the day. "I'm James," he said as he walked into the front porch. "I'm Kurt, a friend of a friend stopping by to say hey." They shook hands and then started to talk about me. it was awkward, but it only lasted about fifteen minutes before kurt said that he had to run some errands and that he would catch me later. Then James took me to get steak at TJs about twenty minutes from here, and then to rent a movie. We watched Joe Somebody. I love that movie! LOL Then he told me that he'd be gone for a few weeks to help his grandma on her ranch.
and then he kissed me, and i kissed back. it wasn't exactly making out... but it was a rather long "kissing" session. He walked me to my door, and kissed me again. "Goodnight, beautiful" he said. I opened the door and walked to the window, and gazed at his headlights until they disappeared. Then I changed into some exercise clothes and ran about 3/4 of a mile and walked three. it was a good night.
I'm not confused anymore.... it's a good feeling... Whoohoo!!